And I'm finding them hard to control.
I am not the Hermitgrrl you may know and love. I cannot stfu no mo. Do not tread further if you want to keep me in the same light. I'm serious, and I'm sorry, but I'm also free.
I used to always just try to be really nice. Polite was number one; even if I couldn't stand someone I'd try to be polite. I figured that's what set me above the sociopaths. You call black people coons and Mexicans animals? I'd widen my eyes in incredulity and fill my mouth with beer so I wouldn't say what I was thinking, namely: You racist F**k!!!!!
Yeah... So I kinda broke that mental handicap. I'm in a 'writing group' (using the term loosely here as I agreed to not break confidences and I GASP!!!!!!! take my word seriously!!!!!!!) and anyway this is a 'trade piece for critique' agreement situation. I try to be super kind and helpful with my opinions, not like I'm any better than the next person or anything, just tryin' to be a positive influence. This young guy comes in with (and I looked up the actual dictionary definition and it is dead correct) his manifesto. I hear manifesto and I think unabomber. But anyway this was all about how he'd seen the light and cured his womanizing booze filled ways with JEEZUS.
I have nothing against finding enlightenment and happiness. I do have a problem with blaming women. To read it, it souned like if women (and girls, 12 years old and up) would just cross their legs he wouldn't be such a loser. It was really hard to keep quiet when he described 6th grade females as "little miss easy mcsleazy". I did find merit in some of his views (like why tf would you ever ask someone what they do? would you ever ask someone how much money they make?) and I tried to point out the positive aspects of his manifesto more than the negative. But something really huge has changed for me.
I stopped blogging for two reasons: I couldn't bear to pretend to be happy anymore. I actually AM really happy, but I get mad and am grumpy just like anyone else, and after the not being able to walk for 6 months and 3 times under the knife... well, the world is just different looking.
The other reason is that NASTY BITCHES read this blog and use the info to call the fish and game on me as well as the county for my SUPPOSED (and false) building violations. These are LYING TREASONOUS FUCKWADS WHO LIE TO JUDGES AND MAKE UP RANDOM SHIT FOR THE SOLE PURPOSE OF HURTING OTHERS BECAUSE THEY ARE SOCIOPATHS!!!!!!!! OH BUT I FORGOT I LIVE IN A COUNTY WHERE THE REQUIREMENTS TO BE A FEDERAL JUDGE DO NOT INCLUDE A LEGAL DEGREE!!!!!
Oh and guess what. I'm naming names. The following people are SELFISH SELF-CENTERED SOCIOPATHIC USERS:
DAVID HARDER : MAKES UP RANDOM LIES TO GET PEOPLE ARRESTED AND CRIES TO JUDGES AND LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICIALS
KAT SHARROCK : OWES ME 200 DOLLARS ( and refused to mail me a check) FOR WEEKENDS WORKED AT HER DEFUNCT RESTAURANT
ANASTASIA CONNELLY; FICTITIOUS ORATER TO COPS, JUDGES, "FRIENDS" AND FOE
I WILL NOT BE HARASSED AND LOSE MY BLOG TO ASSHOLES.
IF THESE PEOPLE ARE NOT PSYCHOS THEN I WILL HAVE NO TROUBLE!
IF I HAVE TROUBLE THEN THEY WILL HAVE PROVED ME CORRECT.
I will keep you posted, and hope to go back to being able to blog in freedom from fear. This IS the land of the free... right?
Forever a patriot and truly yours, Hermitgrrl
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